Failed Attempts at Poetry

Attempt 1:

you called me the one of broken smiles
but I remembered I made it myself
I try to be happy,
just because you won’t, like everyone else
I smile when I see you
I want to cry at the wrong I do
I never wanted to hurt you...
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Attempt 2:

I try to fix it,
as if falls apart
I try to catch the pieces
and glue it back together
as it breaks
and shatters
neverending task
this love wouldn’t last
but my denial
and false smile
kept us going,
for a while
to keep us thinking
it was just a phase
that it was just a big mistake
that we could work past
hesitate,
you knew first that we had to go
it was me that was slow
love hurts
love hurts
every cut
in the strings attached
hurts and bleeds
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Attempt 3:

I’m the one of broken smiles
the one of broken dreams
and silly things
a fool, a fool
someone whose
dreams never come true
just lingering
lingering
on sweet memory
of what once was

endless regrets
come like nightmares
endless nights
with no one there
just to stare
at the cieling
to be healing
wounds from words
that slash heart like a knife
can a heart break twice?

anyone, anyone
I want to be
just with anyone
just want to help
someone
someone
please listen to me
listen to my endless stories
and tell me
all that you’ve been through
all that you wish you’d do
all that you hide away
deep inside
and please,
oh please
forgive me...
when no one can save me
please
forgive me..
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Attempt 4:

catch me smiling
when I promised to be crying
catch me laughing
when I should be crafting
ways of revenge
things to send
my hurt your way
but I just want to laugh
it’s ridiculous,
ridiculous
this sadness
I can’t even take myself seriously
anymore
though I break inside
I laugh
and cry
and laugh
want to die
happy sad
you make me mad
but I smile
I’m the wild mood swing
I’m the hurting happy thing
that never wants to hurt
anyone but herself
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Attempt 5:

All I ever wanted
was to be forgiven
for the pain I’ve dealt out
and the pain I’ve been given
just forgiven

All I’ve ever wanted
was for you to say
it’s okay
I thought you would
react that way
but no
nothing
nothing
is forgiven

please forgive me
can’t you see
that this regret
is endless for me
and I'll hurt forever
and ever
until you say
that it's ok
I'll always feel this way
never knowing
what to say
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Attempts - Failed:

Today I can't write
today I can't rhyme
and trying endless
is such a waste of time
I try to express
the girl I know best
and all I get
is what I set
before me
just empty words
just simple phrase
what to say
oh what to say
I can't describe how I feel
I don't know how to deal
with this love
with this hate
I can't concentrate
long enough to save
this aching head
oh what he said
echo in my head
till I go to bed
and sleep away
my tears
my countless fears
please just leave..
leave me
because all I ever did
was hurt you
and you hurt me too
with your angry words
and bottled up emotion
a sea of tears,
now an ocean
so leave
call me please
and let's end it
once and for all
so we can now
go and find
the right person
with the right mind
not such a waste of time
of people we'll never see
broken dreams
people who can't feel
anything
anymore
numb